Recently I've realized that I always have this problem of wishing for the future. Rather than just being content with what I have, I want more. I'm just so excited for things that are coming that I want them to hurry up and get here. For example, I can't wait until next semester! I'm going to have an easy course load, be working at an amazing internship, and it is my last semester at BYU. Yet, I know that once next semester is actually here, I'll be saying that I can't wait to graduate and be done with school! It's just a continuous cycle of wanting what's next. Brent's been getting a little annoyed with me always wanting more and hearing me say things like this and has been trying to get me to see how good we have it now.
Well, today while I was walking home today after a great workout at the track, I had an interesting experience. I was in a really good mood from all the endorphins, the weather was perfect, I was listening to some great music from Glee, and as I looked around at the changing colors of the leaves falling all around me, I couldn't help but realize how great my life is right now. At that moment, absolutely everything in my life was perfect. I knew that my wonderful husband would be waiting for me at home with a hug and a kiss. I knew that I didn't have any pressing school assignments that needed to be done this weekend. I knew that I have a wonderful family that loves me. As I was thinking all of these things, I realized that in a few years when I've got 4 kids and Brent is working all the time at a top engineering firm and I'm so stressed from managing our home, I am going to look back and wish for this day. Instead of wishing for what's next, I will be missing the moment that I am in right now. So now I have a new outlook on the rest of my time here at BYU and the rest of Brent and I's time with just the two of us.
